Thirsty for More.

As a lawyer, it was interesting how I approached my thirst to learn more about God after the night He comforted me.  I was quite analytical.

“First things first, get a Bible,” I thought.

I mean, I wasn’t a moron.  I knew the Bible was God’s “law.”  As a recent law school graduate, this seemed like the most practical place to start.

Asleep-in-bookstoreIn the name of “legal research,” I went to a bookstore.  I skimmed the “religion” section and moved past the tarot card and astrology books.  I gazed uncomfortably at the lady standing in the self-help section one row over.  I wasn’t sure what would be worse for me – if someone I knew spotted me in “self-help” or by the Bibles.  Either way, I’d be pegged as a crazy person.

Once I found the Bibles, I was overwhelmed.  There are a million different kinds of Bibles – King James Version, New King James Version, New Living Translation, New Life Version – who knew there were so many varieties of the same book?  I certainly wasn’t going to hunt someone down at Barnes & Noble and ask “Which Bible is right for me?”

So, I used a sophisticated technique to select my Bible (the Bible I still use today).  I imagespicked one that was pink.  Done.

I can now say without fear of being spotted by someone I know – because it is hard to be conspicuous on the internet – that I am the proud owner of a One Year Bible for Women – New Living Translation, 2nd Edition as published by Tyndale House Publishers, Inc. in Carol Stream, Illinois.

Surprisingly (or perhaps not that surprising) – people have strong opinions about Bibles – and will openly tell you to “use this one” or “that one is better.”  I say pick the Bible that works best for you and enjoy.

I paid for the Bible with the money I’d typically use to buy wine and stashed it in my backpack.  You’d think I was toting around illicit content and not the Word of God.  Twelve years later – I look back at this chapter of my life and laugh.  I was so ridiculous.

Right after work, I went home, cracked the cover of that Bible and started reading.  I immediately liked “my” Bible because it was a “one a day.”  This means the book is divided into easily digestible segments of Old Testament, New Testament, Psalms and Proverbs.

Turns out – the “Bible” – is a real page turner.  I’m not kidding!  I’d always been an avid reader – pouring through volumes of books in a month – and I was pleasantly surprised by how enjoyable the Bible was (and is) to read.

UnknownFor anyone who is a fan of “Lord of the Rings” or “Game of Thrones” – I can tell you right now that J.R.R. Tolkien and George Martin got nothing on God’s Word.

The Bible is wonderful – it uses incredible imagery and the content is rich.  Every time you read it – you take away something new.  Your relationship to the “characters” inside deepens.  And before you know it – something starts to change in you too.  The book becomes a part of you – and you become a part of it.

To say that I became “obsessed” with the Bible is an understatement.  I never felt like I was just reading a book – I felt like I was having a conversation with someone very wise.

As a young adult – I made so many mistakes.  I carried the burdens of regret, fear, sadness, anxiety and shame with me.  I felt heavy.  In comparison, God’s Word was a comforting – albeit stern – voice answering questions and addressing concerns.  I received real counsel.  More than once, I laughed out loud when I read something in the Bible because it was so dead on.  It was like God spoke directly to me.

After reading my Bible, I’d think – “Wow, I’ve got a lot of work to do.”  But I never felt badimages-1 about myself.  Hope took root in my heart.  God’s Word watered the seed.

As I read more, my relationship with God deepened and my desire to know him more intimately grew.  I realized that I didn’t just want God’s Word to be on my nightstand.  I wanted it to be present with me everywhere I went.  I wanted to be a part of God’s family (badly) and I wanted him to be a part of mine.

During this chapter of my faith journey, my only regret (largely because of my own pigheadedness) – was that I did not seek out a Christian community to support me.  I am prideful and this world has conditioned me to think that “I” know best and that “I” am always right.  In this respect? “I” am a moron.

What I eventually discovered, is that there is “one” who knows way more than me – and that is Jesus.  It took the right church to help me “let go”, accept Christ’s love for me and trust that I deserve it.

But it was the Bible that got me started.  Buying that book remains the best decision I ever made in my life.  It is my comfort; my cup of laughter; my joy; and my tough love whenever I need it.  I don’t need a network or WiFi to be connected.  All I have to do is open the pages of my Father’s book – drink – and be satisfied.

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“I am the bread of life; he who comes to Me will not hunger, and he who believes in Me will never thirst.”   John 7:38-39.




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  1. Love it! I bought a fancy (and expensive for me) King James Bible. Why? Because some grizzled Pentecostal with missing teeth suggested it was what I should buy. I still have it, but it was the free NIV with the cheap cover that I carried everywhere to the point where I wore a hand print in the cover and pages began to fall out. My first encounter, though, was in a world religion class. As an English Literature major I couldn’t get over the fact that it was written by more than 40 authors over an 1500 year period, but it held together like a finely woven tapestry! It spoke to me as well, like a mirror reflecting my soul. It was unnerving in those pre-Lord and Savior days. The first time I read these words about the Word of God I recognized there was something to them: “living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart.”


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